“Hmm.”
“What?”
A big city, he thought. He was walking nonchalant self-absorbed indifferent ill at ease. Oh dear, oh my a lady said as he passed by. He turned to look at some spilt coffee; he laughed quietly. Brown liquid dripped from the table, hot liquid. Ow, ouch. Let me help you with that someone said and the waiter came flustered and cleaned it up.
He walked on, forge forward not looking back. Went into a bookstore, took out his wallet peered in it. A lot of money, he smiled. A lot of expendable money. What shall I buy? What shall he buy someone thought who saw him with the wallet and the expendable money.
Their silent meeting flickered through his head like a movie replayed over and over again muted. He could see it he could hear it but could not feel it; muted. He and she ah never again he thought never again.
Book, book any interesting books? Classics section Austen, nope been there read that. Non-fiction, biography boring more football players darn them. Popular science interesting physics evolution nice but nothing I can’t get elsewhere maybe something else leave that for next time.
“I felt tired, so I took a seat.”
“Ah, why else would you take a seat?”
“Maybe because I simply wanted to?”
“But why did you want to?”
“I just…wanted to.”
“But why?”
“Must there be a cause?”
“Must there not?”
Mmm. Good morning. Ah tired. Go back to sleep. It’s morning wake up brush teeth do work do work why because you have to. Oh…
“Morning…did I wake you?”
“Ah, nope. Anything?”
“Happy Birthday!”
Oh yes I forgot how could I gah my brain in the morning.
“Ah thank you, thank you, haha. Thanks for remembering.”
Hmm who else is going to wish me gosh have to smile say thank you repeat ad nauseum damn conventions gosh dang why we follow them. Hungry, did I buy any food oh yes cereals lovely.
Good morning he remembered that that was what she always said to him. Good morning he said to himself to compensate oh I miss her that was what he was trying to stop himself from thinking.
Computer on, email, check, something from someone. Interesting, haven’t heard in a while. Oh, her brother? What…
She’s dead.
